LEAD ME

I love this so much. 



"MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone."-Thomas Merton




Lead me Lord. Lead me and use me...

3 days.

3 days until Honduras.


This will more than likely be my last post until i'm actually in Honduras.


All i have to say is WOW.


The power of God is so real. A week ago i was about a $1000 off of my money needs
and the Holy Spirit really has come through for me.  I had to gain 
some humility and ask for some help, but it was worth it.  I am now only a couple
hundred short of my goal line and my parents are helping me out the rest of the way.


I am so grateful for all those who donated and those who promised to keep the mission and myself in prayer.  - know that prayers are coming ya'lls way too! 


So - my packing is for the most part done! 
I have two suitcases weighing in at 50 lbs. what did i pack?
well everything i could think of and enough supplies to help me 
survive a nuclear attack. you can never be too prepared ... right? 




I'm getting nervous and anxious but never let them see you sweat.!


I know this is where i'm suppose to be in my life and what i'm suppose to be doing 
but it is truly alot of internal sacrifice to be doing this. 


I want to make such an impact in peoples lives and i just hope and pray that i 
will be given that ability to do so. 


I was watching Oprah the other night with my step mom and step sister, and it was Oprah's last episode and the last farewell to her.  I was in tears for half of the show.  Not because it was sad, but because she has done such amazing and powerful things with the life she has been given.  I really do believe that is such a testament to all of us in our lives.. are we living the life in the way we were made to live? are we make an impact in the world? are we living unselfish lives?   Watching the impact one woman has made to millions of people really inspired me to keep doing what i love and never give up on effecting change in the world...
it was exactly what i needed to see before i left for Honduras..






SEE YOU IN HONDURAS! adios amigos! 

PACKING! - kinda freaking out. but thats normal- right?

Well, I started packing today.
I cant believe this day has already come.
I have so many nerves and anxieties rolling around in me.
Pray for me as I start the leaving process. I know I will only be gone
10 weeks but thats the longest i have ever been out of my comfort zone
and frankly i am quite nervous.  It is finally hitting me.

I am so grateful so all those who gave money towards my mission
and for my dad who will pay the rest of my way haha :)

I am so grateful for this opportunity.

Who am I kidding i am so ready to be there- HONDURAS- hello my obsession
and i get to spend the summer there.. this is everything i have been wanting!
I dont know why i am freaking out but i am very excited at the same time!!

MOTHER MARY PRAY FOR ME.
BLESSED PJ II PRAY FOR ME
MARY MAGDALENE PRAY FOR ME.


EVERYONE PLEASE SEND YOUR PRAYERS.

TIMES FLYING!

with less than a month until i leave for HONDURAS i am more excited than ever! but its still all surreal.

I cant believe this is really happening.. i am being able to live out my dream that has been on my heart for the past three years- and go be a missionary for the summer.. talk about BLESSED.
Not many 20 year olds get this opportunity and i am taking full advantage of it while understanding my blessings.

God is doing amazing things in my life and i am truly happier than ever!

I am buying my ticket today and have already started packing!!
-now i just have to get done with finals and i'll be ready to go


START PRAYING EVERYONE!!