Sorry i havent updated my blog in so long. Life has been so hectic here. Two weeks ago a group of 20 came in from VA and NC. Mainly minors around the age of 16 to 18. They were some of the most beautiful young adults i have ever met. So on fire for their faith and ready to serve Christ in any way which is what we are called at Christians to do through our Baptisimal call. They reminded me alot of myself then and it was so fun to be around... they brought me so much joy!
Our first few days with them were spent getting ready for the neighborhood missions. Lots of organization and preperation go into every detail of these missions and it takes alot of dedicated people to pull it off. We planned a weeks worth of activites for 6 six for child. youth. and adults.. needless to say it was alot of work, but any work done in Gods glory is worth it. While on our mission we had a heated run-in with a evangelical minister who tried to convince us the Catholic Church was started in 300 AD by Constatine...totally trying to convert us. But anyways.. we did house visits and prayed for so many broken people.. it was beautiful.. one of our teams teams spent a day praying over a man who was on his death bed and had been there for weeks if not longer.. they prayed with him all day anything they could.. rosaries, the works.. and the next day they got word he got up and had coffee with his family the next morning.. now thats powerful.
One of my favorite things we have done lately is work at one of the boys orphanges here (Granja). One of the midterm HONDURAN missioners that is with us (Josue) lived there for 7 years and he and i have become super close. So everytime we go there my heart breaks because that was his life and it makes it more than just a visit to an orphange. Also the fact that his younger brother is still living there. They have some of the most beautiful guys there with down syndrome. One guy who is probably 14 was found when he was a baby and the garbage dump here. His name is Howie and he is so precious and always smiling. Im sure whoever put him at the garbage dump wanted him to died their but he beat the odds and is so full of life and joy. Granja has become one of my special projects here and i am planning a big fun project for them to do next weekend.
The mission that we did last weekend was really beautiful but extremely sad. During our medititaion prayer time I would like of the pain and brokeness that everyone I met that day felt. It was extremely powerful and moving but very difficult. I met some of the most spiritually rich and beautiful people that would give anything for their relationship with Christ.. and then I almost met people who have been so wounded by faith and through different asapects of their life that they couldnt accept any sort of help or prayer.. That was by far the hardest for me. ..Please pray for the people here! they need it so badly. They are so broken.
So the calling we have here is to have pure hearts and be Saints. That is the life and attitude we try to live by here and it is hard at times, but when you find something you love and are passionate about, it is all worth it. And living in community is definitely not the easiest thing to do but I have gotten close to some many people here. The Hondurans that live here at the house have truly become my brothers and sisters.. I dont want to think of life without them. I dont want to leave them. They have challenged me and made me grow. They are so beautiful. We are all called to be Saints in our own lives and set an example for those around us. Here in Honduras we are creating heros for the future here. Kids sound in their faith that are going to lead the next generation here. Its so powerful to watch and really moving.
It the states we are so afraid of silence and i have really felt that while i have been here. We spend 3-4 hours a day in prayer.. and for someone who isnt good at being quit it is quite challenging at times,. So i am learning to grow in love of silence and prayer and also to notice the little people that i come into contact with. And also learn how to be (small) to be unnoticed. For example, do chores for Gods glory and hope no one notices it but just do it to bring glory to God because thats all that matter at the end of the day.. Everything we do should be a reflection of how we want to give glory to God.
Something really cool that we do here is go to Mass at the Franscian Friars friary and hang out with them... they are some of the coolest men i have ever met.. in 2008 i became super close to one of them and now i am becoming close to these. I have nicknames for some of them.. Gangstaa Fry, Brother P, and G-money.
Some night we go to the top of Casa Gudalupe which is the main Catholic apostolic center here that looks over our neighborhood and we take a massive flashlight and spotlight people ... it is the most clean fun one could ever have. I feel sneaky doing it but then i think about how i am with a Religious brother and think how cool it is that we are doing something kinda bad and i LOVEEEEEEEE IT!
Also I have become EXTREMELY close with the Missionaries of Charity here (Mother Teresas order) they are so amazing and such an example of Mary.. You talk to them and you are like omg Hello Jesus, hello Mary.. Total celebs here.. one day i asked to take a pic with the after mass so i could remember them forever and they told me that i should just join them so i would be with them forever haha.. so thats three times since ive been in Honduras that nuns have challenged me to religious life.. Is God telling me something ? hahah
During my prayer time here I spend alot of time reflecting on where God was at certain times in my life.. the good times and the bad times.. Since i have been here i have brought to surface wounds in my heart that i didnt even know where there. It has really challenged me to go deeper. I have been feeling my moms father who died when i was youngers, presence... and also bringing to surface that I never knew my dads parents or brother.. That surfaced one night during Adoration and my heart literally was burning in pain.. I never thought about how much that affected me until it surfaced.. I am still working through those broken parts but not just kicking it aside like i have done my whole life.
On a lighter note, THANKS TO ALL MY SPONSORS!! yall made this all possible and its because of yall lives are being changed.. so praise God for yall. My mom sent me here with tons of toliet seat coversss... but the thing is where i would need to go to the bathroom on missions there is not actual toliet.. just holes of glory in the earth.. so thanks mom but next time i will have to bring to seats hahaha!
My spanish has gotten alot better and i work as a translator here but then i get super lazy with my spanish because i like to talk fast so when i dont have much time i speak in spanglish ... so i have gotten use to pure spanish and to cold showers.. they arent that bad anymore.. although i would like a hot shower, i am just grateful for running water (real talk).
So life here is just so different and its hard to find hope in such brokeness but there needs to be hope. In one town we worked in there is an extremely strong Catholic mens group.. They are true gentlemen to their wives and bring them to church and are family men which is unheard of here in Honduras.. We mainly just work with broken women who have been hurt and abused by men. .. 75% girls before the age of 13 here have been sexually abused. So to have strong men sound in their families and faith is soooo beautiful to see.
The best way i can describe what we are doing here is if you can remember those commericals you see of the kids with no food or clothes and the people asking for donations and what do we usually do when we see commericals like that????? We usually change the channel because we dont care or its just hard for us as wealth Americans to face the reality of the poor in the world.. well what we are doing is we are not changing the channel.. We cant change the channel here. It is a daily fight here.. because it is so mentally hard to be around such brokeness.
We are about to start planning for our next team to come in... They come in July 21 which is a week from today and a day before my 21st bday!! We have to prep all the arts and crafts and dramas for the week again which is alot of work so that is what we will be doing this up coming week! During all of that we have social work, Catholic Evangelization in our neighborhood and we do tutoring for kids in our neighborhood for a few hours a week.. so we stay busy.. I also have to write two talks for the next mission.. A talk on Chasity and The love of God! Pray for me cause i dont like to give talks.
OH! and i broke my toe this week.. that was really exciting! i ran into the stove and my right foot 4th toe was caught on the leg of the stove it was bad.. i went to the hospital and he said it was broken but theres nothing you can do for a broken toe haha its just really ugly. And I cant play hard core soccer with Latins anymore.. so it sucks.. I really love playing soccer with them.. I played a game of soccer on a huge field and it was beautiful with the mountains in the background.. it was perfect and i almost scored.. twice!
I´m not ready to go home.. I feel like this is my home. I am discearning coming back for a year or two.. Living here just feels so right.. I am happier here than i have ever been.. Sometimes i feel like i cant do stuff right here but that it just because i am learning and growing.. but through all of that i am becoming a person who i am okay with being... I feel my life has meaning and worth something here. I am so grateful for my life in the states but since i was little i felt like i was being called to something so much more and i have definitely found that calling here in the brokeness and poverty of Honduras.. Being small and making a difference in anyway i can by bringing laughter and smiles to the broken and loving on the babies here.
This quote really describes my life here right now...
"Though she was young, she was no timid child. She was curious about things. She liked to ask questions... She had a quick mind and she paid attention, picking up phrases of the language, learning how to cook rice and eat with her hands... It intrigued her, the land and the mystery. She loved the thatched roofs and the naked children, the wonderful simplicity of village life. Her eyes seemed to glow; she couldn't get enough of it. She wasn't afraid to get her hands dirty, in fact sometimes she seemed fascinated by it. Not blood and gore so much, but the adrenaline buzz that went with her job, that quick hot rush in your veins when you had to do things fast and right. She didn't back away from ugliness; she was quiet and steady. There was a new confidence in her voice, a new authority in the way she carried herself. She could look at you with this little smile in her eyes and she was lost inside herself. Lost inside the country and the people and the sadness and the joy. She was the poverty. She was the land. She was still that innocent bright eyed girl from a land far away. But now, she was on fire."
This is so beautiful.. its about loving and being ready to love....
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone -- to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God, to a Christian says, "No, not until you are satisfied and fulfulfilled and content with living loved by Me alone. I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me -- exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing -- one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I am. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you... You must wait. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that I've given to them. Don't look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even this very minute to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and with the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me...and this is perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly, I am God Almighty. Believe and be satisfied." - St Anthony of Padua
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
UPATED! - back in comayagua
So we spent the weekend with the group from baton rouge and the group from focus which is a group of college kids and older who do Catholic missions all over the world.. needless to say those guys were amazingggg.
The first night we were together i had to share my ´testimony´and if you dont know what a testimony is, it is what has gotten me to this place in my faith life.. all my struggles and strives.. so the 4 summer term kids talked to the group and we each gave our stories on how our lives have changed over the years through our faith.. it was fun..
the next day we volunteered with the missioners of charity nun (MOTHER TERESA´S order) at a local orphange.. they were freaking amazing.. the kids were precious.. we played games, sang songs and put on skits for them.. they loved it.. but during all the kids having fun i saw a little baby girl not more than 2 sad by herself against the wall.. and in my world that doesnt happy.. so i picked her up and held her.. for the rest of the day.. she wouldnt break a smile.. it was so sad.. but after about two hours holding and playing with her i got her to break a smile.. and a tiny innocent laugh.. the nuns were in awe.. they then told me that the little girl ¨JACKIE´¨s mom left her there a month ago and she never smiles..she misses her mom.. i´m the first person in a month to get her to smile.. she let me feed her and rock her and just love on her.. she held me so close to her and cried when i left. so of course i lost it.. the nuns just stared at me in awe and i knew that little girl was my purpose for the day. I held her so tight and tried to show her as much love as i could in the 4 hours we were there but it wasnt enough.
Nothing else big happened this weekend besides a nun telling me she felt called to ask me if i had thought about the religious life so i got scared and i litterally ran away haha. but she was cool.
When we got back in Comayagua i was glad to because A. I got all of my clothes. B. I have a stash of peanut butter crackers and oreos haha and C. I am now living in community with 16 people. So everyday its 16 that do everything together--- and i love it
I seriously adore all the Honduras.. some play guitar so we stay up late playing and dancing around chasing the massive frogs here.
The other day we held a first communion retreat for a group of kids that actuallyhave their first communion today and that is were we are going later.. they were awesome.. it was frm 8-3 so it was alot of hard work...
Yesterday we did lots of chores in the morning.. i held flood a room to clean it out.. it was gross and i slipped and ate it big time.. the ground was covered in dust and dirt so we had to flood the room and push the water out .. later on yesterday i helped one of the honduran girls out with physical therapy work for people that live around us... a little boy with a tumor in his head and can function much but has so so much life..
and last night we celebrated Carol (the head of the missions) birthday with a huge party .. it was so fun.. i cant to celebrate my birthday here!!!
okay until friday adios!!!!
The first night we were together i had to share my ´testimony´and if you dont know what a testimony is, it is what has gotten me to this place in my faith life.. all my struggles and strives.. so the 4 summer term kids talked to the group and we each gave our stories on how our lives have changed over the years through our faith.. it was fun..
the next day we volunteered with the missioners of charity nun (MOTHER TERESA´S order) at a local orphange.. they were freaking amazing.. the kids were precious.. we played games, sang songs and put on skits for them.. they loved it.. but during all the kids having fun i saw a little baby girl not more than 2 sad by herself against the wall.. and in my world that doesnt happy.. so i picked her up and held her.. for the rest of the day.. she wouldnt break a smile.. it was so sad.. but after about two hours holding and playing with her i got her to break a smile.. and a tiny innocent laugh.. the nuns were in awe.. they then told me that the little girl ¨JACKIE´¨s mom left her there a month ago and she never smiles..she misses her mom.. i´m the first person in a month to get her to smile.. she let me feed her and rock her and just love on her.. she held me so close to her and cried when i left. so of course i lost it.. the nuns just stared at me in awe and i knew that little girl was my purpose for the day. I held her so tight and tried to show her as much love as i could in the 4 hours we were there but it wasnt enough.
Nothing else big happened this weekend besides a nun telling me she felt called to ask me if i had thought about the religious life so i got scared and i litterally ran away haha. but she was cool.
When we got back in Comayagua i was glad to because A. I got all of my clothes. B. I have a stash of peanut butter crackers and oreos haha and C. I am now living in community with 16 people. So everyday its 16 that do everything together--- and i love it
I seriously adore all the Honduras.. some play guitar so we stay up late playing and dancing around chasing the massive frogs here.
The other day we held a first communion retreat for a group of kids that actuallyhave their first communion today and that is were we are going later.. they were awesome.. it was frm 8-3 so it was alot of hard work...
Yesterday we did lots of chores in the morning.. i held flood a room to clean it out.. it was gross and i slipped and ate it big time.. the ground was covered in dust and dirt so we had to flood the room and push the water out .. later on yesterday i helped one of the honduran girls out with physical therapy work for people that live around us... a little boy with a tumor in his head and can function much but has so so much life..
and last night we celebrated Carol (the head of the missions) birthday with a huge party .. it was so fun.. i cant to celebrate my birthday here!!!
okay until friday adios!!!!
Friday, June 17, 2011
adios to TEGUS!
So today is friday and i am done with langauge school.
I am so happy to be done. 4 hours of spanish a day for 5 days a week for
2 weeks is alot and very exhausting. if you cant do the math on your own thats
40 hours of spanish.. for a gringo *american* thats alot of freaking spanish.
Life is so different here. I have been thinking alot about what it entails to be a third world country .. why God would allow people to live like they do here, but also how i have met some of the most truly happy people i have ever met here.
It just goes to show that possessions and all that we think that matter dont. God's love will always be enough to substain us and that is the truly important message that is obvious here.
On wed. we went to a girls orphange here. It was by far my favorite day so far here in Honduras.
I got to hold and love on sweet angelic babies that just wanted to be held and loved.. It got me thinking alot about the babies in my family and how much i love them and how God has blessed my family with such an abundance of love. The girls at the orphange all begged me to pick them up and hold them. I remember when i was there age i would do anything i could for my parents love and attention.. i couldnt imagine not having the comfort of that abundance. I always call all the little girls i meet here princess in spanish because they truly are Gods chosen beautiful princesses. We are all sons and daughters of the King and have been filled with His grace and love.
Other than that not much has changed. Still sleeping humbly on a little mattress pad on the floor in pure heat haha.. and eating actual decent Honduran food. the other day we went to the mall and i had pizza.. it wasnt even fair.. i felt like i was in the states.
People just stare at me here.. in a way i hate it but in a way i love it. I love being a visible symbol of someone who cares enough to effect change in THEIR country. Hopefully that will click in peoples head and they will want to effect change themselves but i can only be so hopeful in such a gloomy place.
Its been a truly test for me to have such an intense prayer schedule and i am still getting use to it but it has been helpful for the place i have been in lately. Catholism has been a struggle for me lately which hurts my pride to say but at times i am doubtful... but i know Christ wants me to have those doubts to make my faith in Him stronger and more real. The other night i was writing in my prayer journal and praying for some sign that He is with me.. I came across my favorite Bible verse which is 1 Timothy 2.14 and after i read it i thought about how i have this awesome paragraph i randomly found last year about being lost and wanting God to take control of my life and to lead me.. I started thinking about how much i wanted to read that passage and how i felt that would bring some peace to my doubts lately. I re/opened my journal, looked down and there the passge was in my book. God definitely came through on that one.. How truly amazing.. I know that wasnt a coincedence.. theres no way. Out of all the passges in my book and in the world that i opened up to the one i wanted .. this is the quote..
So needless to say, After that slap in the face and my awesome experience at the oprhange I am back to me again.. i was talking with the lady that runs the mission and she reminded that through our darkness and distrust in the Lord is where we are able to go deeper and find our true reason and passion. I have also been thinking alot about Mother Teresa.. She lived most of her religious sister life in darkness and was able to love with such passion.. theres so way i shouldnt be able to do the same.. thats what i have been called to do.
This weekend is a huge conference here in Tegus. 25,000 Catholic teens are coming from around the world to kick off World youth day which is this summer! I am really excited for that.. its tomorrow night until sunday morning so we are going to be up all day and all night.. no naps haha.. And i will be with the group that i organized from baton rouge and i am so excited to see them.. they are coming down for the mountains today so i will see them tomorrow.. being in lang school for the two weeks hndered me from seeing them but i am excited to spend time with them this weekend until tuesday here in tegus. PRAY FOR US!
It has rained everyday here which SUCKS. Because we walk 20 mins everyday in the rain and Danielle doesnt do rain very well haha especially when you are walking on broken streets and up hills.. oh what a group of Catholics will to recieve the Blessed Sacarment is nothing haha.. Here in Honduras people walk HOURS to go to church which they may only be able to recieve once a year... we are so ungrateful in the states of that blessing to be able to go whenever..
I have been feeling great besides a few headaches here and there from the weather change and exhaust from bad cars. Taxi are very common here.. we take them everywhere and its like $4 to get around.. 100 limperas is like $5 .. so stuff is pretty cheap here..
Not much else here.. just ready to get back to Comayagua on tuesday.. i need more clothes haha i am tired of washing and wearing the same stuff haha.. i only thought i was going to be here for 5 days then going back to comayagua but i have been here for two weeks haha.. we wash in an old school pilla .. which is seriously a washboard.. missing a washer machine hahaha but loving all that it is teaching me.
well we are off to our holy hour, hour before mass then mass so i will write again next week when i am back in Comayagua..
LOTS OF LOVE AND TONS OF PRAYERS!!!! XOXOXO MISSING EVERYONE SO SO MUCH
BUT LOVING IT HERE!! ADIOS
Sorry if theres spelling errors i dont have much time to write and correct hahaha
Monday, June 13, 2011
HOLA FROM HONDURAS!
Hola todos!
I am so sorry i havent gotten a chance to write... life is crazy here!
We have been in Tegus for the past week in intensive language school..
so at this time as i am typing in english i am translating it in spanish in my head. haha
We only have a little time on the computer today at an internet cafe so
i thought i would give everyone a run down on how my days usually are.
We wake up at 5. yes i, Danielle Dubois wake up at 5. which means i'm out of bed at 5.30
doing our personal morning prayers from 5.30 to 6.30
we pray lituergy of the hours together at 6.30 and have breakfast at 7
we eat and have time so ourselves until 8 when our
personal spanish teachers arrive . . .we have class until 12
then pray the rosary until 1230
after we have lunch and study spanish for 2 hours.
we have some free time and then we walk to church 20 mins away
for 5.30 for an hour of personal prayer then mass everyday at 6.30
we walk home ay 7.30 and have dinner around 8.30 ish
we do evening prayer at 9.30 ish and our in bed by 10
our schedule is jam packed and some days are spent going out into the community doing different
services during our free time/study time but most days are pretty close to this.
On saturday was Pentacost which was like Christmas here..
MASS WAS 4 HOURS LONG! yeah 4 hours of me being A.D.D and
not understanding spanish but none the less it was nice. I have made
BFF's with this little old lady in church.. everyday she comes over to me and gives me hugs
and kisses. just to me... she is so adorable..
Studying spanish is very tiring and i have been skipping out on studying as much as i should and replacing them with afternoon naps. *hot summer naps.. where you wake up in your on sweat.. oh its quite lovely.
its so hot here and no AC. we have a fan in our room and i usually fall asleep with it pressed against my face haha.. do you blame me?
Yesterday we went back to the mall.. the other day we went on an outing and yesterday our power was out of 8 hours so we took a taxi back to the mall and saw XMEN in the movie theatre // in english of course haha.. it was nice to get out because being in the casa house with nothing to do but study spanish with the same 5 people being an A.D.D. kid can be quite boringgg.. i jut want to run or burn some energy and i usually just find myself dancing around the house haha.. we have a little tv that we watched the Honduras soccer game on the other night. but yeah more spanish.. my head might explode soon. .
My spanish teacher is so so crazy. she speaks like two words in english but we manage to get around the subjects and learn what i need to learn. I am having trouble with my verb conjugations. I have to study alot but it will be worth it.
I am very ready to get back to Comayagua and be with everyone else. I miss everyone so so much.
I am ready to practice my spanish on everyone.
I think that is it.. theres not much more to say..
I need some serious prayers i am going through some desselation but am going to get through it..
we are eating AMAZING food. because we arent in the moutains eating bad food which is nice. but anywyas.
until next week !
ADIOSSS!
I am so sorry i havent gotten a chance to write... life is crazy here!
We have been in Tegus for the past week in intensive language school..
so at this time as i am typing in english i am translating it in spanish in my head. haha
We only have a little time on the computer today at an internet cafe so
i thought i would give everyone a run down on how my days usually are.
We wake up at 5. yes i, Danielle Dubois wake up at 5. which means i'm out of bed at 5.30
doing our personal morning prayers from 5.30 to 6.30
we pray lituergy of the hours together at 6.30 and have breakfast at 7
we eat and have time so ourselves until 8 when our
personal spanish teachers arrive . . .we have class until 12
then pray the rosary until 1230
after we have lunch and study spanish for 2 hours.
we have some free time and then we walk to church 20 mins away
for 5.30 for an hour of personal prayer then mass everyday at 6.30
we walk home ay 7.30 and have dinner around 8.30 ish
we do evening prayer at 9.30 ish and our in bed by 10
our schedule is jam packed and some days are spent going out into the community doing different
services during our free time/study time but most days are pretty close to this.
On saturday was Pentacost which was like Christmas here..
MASS WAS 4 HOURS LONG! yeah 4 hours of me being A.D.D and
not understanding spanish but none the less it was nice. I have made
BFF's with this little old lady in church.. everyday she comes over to me and gives me hugs
and kisses. just to me... she is so adorable..
Studying spanish is very tiring and i have been skipping out on studying as much as i should and replacing them with afternoon naps. *hot summer naps.. where you wake up in your on sweat.. oh its quite lovely.
its so hot here and no AC. we have a fan in our room and i usually fall asleep with it pressed against my face haha.. do you blame me?
Yesterday we went back to the mall.. the other day we went on an outing and yesterday our power was out of 8 hours so we took a taxi back to the mall and saw XMEN in the movie theatre // in english of course haha.. it was nice to get out because being in the casa house with nothing to do but study spanish with the same 5 people being an A.D.D. kid can be quite boringgg.. i jut want to run or burn some energy and i usually just find myself dancing around the house haha.. we have a little tv that we watched the Honduras soccer game on the other night. but yeah more spanish.. my head might explode soon. .
My spanish teacher is so so crazy. she speaks like two words in english but we manage to get around the subjects and learn what i need to learn. I am having trouble with my verb conjugations. I have to study alot but it will be worth it.
I am very ready to get back to Comayagua and be with everyone else. I miss everyone so so much.
I am ready to practice my spanish on everyone.
I think that is it.. theres not much more to say..
I need some serious prayers i am going through some desselation but am going to get through it..
we are eating AMAZING food. because we arent in the moutains eating bad food which is nice. but anywyas.
until next week !
ADIOSSS!
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
LEAD ME
I love this so much.
"MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone."-Thomas Merton
Lead me Lord. Lead me and use me...
"MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone."-Thomas Merton
Lead me Lord. Lead me and use me...
Monday, May 30, 2011
3 days.
3 days until Honduras.
This will more than likely be my last post until i'm actually in Honduras.
All i have to say is WOW.
The power of God is so real. A week ago i was about a $1000 off of my money needs
and the Holy Spirit really has come through for me. I had to gain
some humility and ask for some help, but it was worth it. I am now only a couple
hundred short of my goal line and my parents are helping me out the rest of the way.
I am so grateful for all those who donated and those who promised to keep the mission and myself in prayer. - know that prayers are coming ya'lls way too!
So - my packing is for the most part done!
I have two suitcases weighing in at 50 lbs. what did i pack?
well everything i could think of and enough supplies to help me
survive a nuclear attack. you can never be too prepared ... right?
I'm getting nervous and anxious but never let them see you sweat.!
I know this is where i'm suppose to be in my life and what i'm suppose to be doing
but it is truly alot of internal sacrifice to be doing this.
I want to make such an impact in peoples lives and i just hope and pray that i
will be given that ability to do so.
I was watching Oprah the other night with my step mom and step sister, and it was Oprah's last episode and the last farewell to her. I was in tears for half of the show. Not because it was sad, but because she has done such amazing and powerful things with the life she has been given. I really do believe that is such a testament to all of us in our lives.. are we living the life in the way we were made to live? are we make an impact in the world? are we living unselfish lives? Watching the impact one woman has made to millions of people really inspired me to keep doing what i love and never give up on effecting change in the world...
it was exactly what i needed to see before i left for Honduras..
SEE YOU IN HONDURAS! adios amigos!
This will more than likely be my last post until i'm actually in Honduras.
All i have to say is WOW.
The power of God is so real. A week ago i was about a $1000 off of my money needs
and the Holy Spirit really has come through for me. I had to gain
some humility and ask for some help, but it was worth it. I am now only a couple
hundred short of my goal line and my parents are helping me out the rest of the way.
I am so grateful for all those who donated and those who promised to keep the mission and myself in prayer. - know that prayers are coming ya'lls way too!
So - my packing is for the most part done!
I have two suitcases weighing in at 50 lbs. what did i pack?
well everything i could think of and enough supplies to help me
survive a nuclear attack. you can never be too prepared ... right?
I'm getting nervous and anxious but never let them see you sweat.!
I know this is where i'm suppose to be in my life and what i'm suppose to be doing
but it is truly alot of internal sacrifice to be doing this.
I want to make such an impact in peoples lives and i just hope and pray that i
will be given that ability to do so.
I was watching Oprah the other night with my step mom and step sister, and it was Oprah's last episode and the last farewell to her. I was in tears for half of the show. Not because it was sad, but because she has done such amazing and powerful things with the life she has been given. I really do believe that is such a testament to all of us in our lives.. are we living the life in the way we were made to live? are we make an impact in the world? are we living unselfish lives? Watching the impact one woman has made to millions of people really inspired me to keep doing what i love and never give up on effecting change in the world...
it was exactly what i needed to see before i left for Honduras..
SEE YOU IN HONDURAS! adios amigos!
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