adios to TEGUS!

So today is friday and i am done with langauge school. 

I am so happy to be done. 4 hours of spanish a day for 5 days a week for 

2 weeks is alot and very exhausting. if you cant do the math on your own thats

40 hours of spanish.. for a gringo *american* thats alot of freaking spanish. 

Life is so different here. I have been thinking alot about what it entails to be a third world country .. why God would allow people to live like they do here, but also how i have met some of the most truly happy people i have ever met here.

It just goes to show that possessions and all that we think that matter dont. God's love will always be enough to substain us and that is the truly important message that is obvious here.

On wed. we went to a girls orphange here. It was by far my favorite day so far here in Honduras.

I got to hold and love on sweet angelic babies that just wanted to be held and loved.. It got me thinking alot about the babies in my family and how much i love them and how God has blessed my family with such an abundance of love.  The girls at the orphange all begged me to pick them up and hold them. I remember when i was there age i would do anything i could for my parents love and attention.. i couldnt imagine not having the comfort of that abundance. I always call all the little girls i meet here princess in spanish because they truly are Gods chosen beautiful princesses.  We are all sons and daughters of the King and have been filled with His grace and love.

Other than that not much has changed. Still sleeping humbly on a little mattress pad on the floor in pure heat haha.. and eating actual decent Honduran food. the other day we went to the mall and i had pizza.. it wasnt even fair.. i felt like i was in the states.

People just stare at me here.. in a way i hate it but in a way i love it.  I love being a visible symbol of someone who cares enough to effect change in THEIR country.  Hopefully that will click in peoples head and they will want to effect change themselves but i can only be so hopeful in such a gloomy place. 

Its been a truly test for me to have such an intense prayer schedule and i am still getting use to it but it has been helpful for the place i have been in lately.  Catholism has been a struggle for me lately which hurts my pride to say but at times i am doubtful... but i know Christ wants me to have those doubts to make my faith in Him stronger and more real.  The other night i was writing in my prayer journal and praying for some sign that He is with me.. I came across my favorite Bible verse which is 1 Timothy 2.14 and after i read it i thought about how i have this awesome paragraph i randomly found last year about being lost and wanting God to take control of my life and to lead me.. I started thinking about how much i wanted to read that passage and how i felt that would bring some peace to my doubts lately. I re/opened my journal, looked down and there the passge was in my book.  God definitely came through on that one.. How truly amazing.. I know that wasnt a coincedence.. theres no way. Out of all the passges in my book and in the world that i opened up to the one i wanted ..  this is the quote..

MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. -Thomas Merton

So needless to say, After that slap in the face and my awesome experience at the oprhange I am back to me again.. i was talking with the lady that runs the mission and she reminded that through our darkness and distrust in the Lord is where we are able to go deeper and find our true reason and passion.  I have also been thinking alot about Mother Teresa.. She lived most of her religious sister life in darkness and was able to love with such passion.. theres so way i shouldnt be able to do the same.. thats what i have been called to do.

This weekend is a huge conference here in Tegus.  25,000 Catholic teens are coming from around the world to kick off World youth day which is this summer! I am really excited for that.. its tomorrow night until sunday morning so we are going to be up all day and all night.. no naps haha..  And i will be with the group that i organized from baton rouge and i am so excited to see them.. they are coming down for the mountains today so i will see them tomorrow.. being in lang school for the two weeks hndered me from seeing them but i am excited to spend time with them this weekend until tuesday here in tegus.  PRAY FOR US!

It has rained everyday here which SUCKS. Because we walk 20 mins everyday in the rain and Danielle doesnt do rain very well haha especially when you are walking on broken streets and up hills.. oh what a group of Catholics will to recieve the Blessed Sacarment is nothing haha.. Here in Honduras people walk HOURS to go to church which they may only be able to recieve once a year... we are so ungrateful in the states of that blessing to be able to go whenever..

I have been feeling great besides a few headaches here and there from the weather change and exhaust from bad cars. Taxi are very common here.. we take them everywhere and its like $4 to get around.. 100 limperas is like $5  .. so stuff is pretty cheap here..

Not much else here.. just ready to get back to Comayagua on tuesday.. i need more clothes haha i am tired of washing and wearing the same stuff haha.. i only thought i was going to be here for 5 days then going back to comayagua but i have been here for two weeks haha..  we wash in an old school pilla .. which is seriously a washboard.. missing a washer machine hahaha but loving all that it is teaching me.

well we are off to our holy hour, hour before mass then mass so i will write again next week when i am back in Comayagua.. 

LOTS OF LOVE AND TONS OF PRAYERS!!!! XOXOXO MISSING EVERYONE SO SO MUCH

BUT LOVING IT HERE!! ADIOS

Sorry if theres spelling errors i dont have much time to write and correct hahaha